I took a horrible ugly fall this morning. Wham – down on my face kind of fall. It really shook me up, not to mention it hurt like . This doesn’t have anything to do with my blog, I’m just sayin.
I’ve been working on a commissioned piece. This kind of work gives me love hate emotions. I’m honored to do the work, but then I get all tied up in knots over it. I have that, why can’t they just buy a piece that is already made feeling. I don’t feel this way just because I am a grouch. When a person buys a piece that is already made, it stands to reason that they have done so because they like it. When I make a commissioned piece, I always worry that when it is done they are just saying they like because they feel obligated to say so.
It is a confidence game. I get these overwhelming feelings on inadequacy, and the extreme need to please. If I didn’t care about the objects that I make, it wouldn’t matter so much.
I’m taking a course now that is helping me to deal with my confidence and to embrace those feelings of inadequacy and turn them around into something a little more manageable, and to honor myself by believing that the work I produce is acceptable.
A few years ago I came up with the idea that when I was doing commissioned work, I would make three items in the style they wanted, and then let them choose which out of the three they preferred. I thought it was a good solution to the problem, it made me feel better about the situation, and I could rationalized that they were getting a piece they really liked. In the past I always felt I could sell the other 2 unclaimed pieces, no problem. Well, times have changed with the economy and I’ve come to realize that I can’t afford to be stuck with that extra inventory. This week I put an end to this practice, and made only one piece. Besides, it was just time I believed a little more in myself.
It was very liberating. It doesn’t mean that I care less about pleasing my client, it just means that I am more confident in the ability to present an item to their satisfaction.
Normally I work with mostly bright colors, so when the lady I was working for gave me her color choice for the base – I thought – really? I understand she wanted it to go with her kitchen and not everyone has a bright lime green kitchen like me, but still, I would have gone with the bright green – it’s all about me you know.
Olive green for the base
accents of orange, red, yellow and lime. Yeah – I got some of my lime in there.
Looks kind of citrusy here doesn’t it? When it was completed I found that I truly like the combination and will incorporate that in future designs.
Until next time,
Kim – 3 Wishes Studio
Some unfinished business. I have a winner for last week’s Free Friday Giveaway contest. However, I can not get in touch with the winner to find out how to get the daisy stake to her. Laurie S. from flying lessons, if you are reading this I need you to get in touch with me.